The boys and I have been really worried about Niall lately. When I was with Danielle was when he had a huge fight with Tatum. I always knew he loved her. The way he talks about her and how he acts when she’s around. She was more than his best friend. Harry told us he admitted it on the way to the hospital. I still can’t believe out of all of us Niall punched a hole in the wall. Niall wouldn’t talk to me though. He would barely let us into his flat. He was really ashamed of how he punched the hole into the wall. I decided to go to Tatum’s house. I got the address off of Niall’s phone. She doesn’t have any friends in this town besides us. She’s really upset and scared and she needs somebody. I just wanted to check on her because I care and want to see if she’s all right. I walked up and knocked on the front door. Tatum’s mum answered the door and looked at me.”Hello.” She said with a sweet smile on her face.
"Hi I’m Liam. I was wondering if Tatum’s around?"
"Oh I remember you from the hospital. Niall’s friend?"
"She’s in her room. Up the stairs first room on the right." She opened the door to let me in.
"Thank you." I knocked on the door lightly.
"Mum I’m fine." I slightly opened it up and she turned around. Her face turned from annoyed to surprised."Liam." She said shocked.
"What are you doing here?"
"I just came to see how you’re doing."
"Did Niall send you here?"
"He actually has no idea I’m here. If only he’d talk to me." She looked down at the ground obviously upset on the topic of Niall. She looked heartbroken."What happened between you two anyways he won’t tell me."
"It’s stupid." I just looked at her hoping she would say more."I realized that Niall and I weren’t the same anymore at all."Tears started to flow down her face. He tried to hide me when we hung out in London. He can’t be seen with me because of his rep. Well he was spotted." She threw a magazine at me. I opened it and saw an article. There were several pictures of Niall and Tatum together in London."I said something I really regret though and I feel awful. I really upset him."
"I know he punched a wall." I froze realizing I shouldn’t have told her that. But she just started to laugh.
"Niall? You’re talking about Niall Horan punching a wall."
"Yes. He cut up his hand bad we had to take him to the hospital. I’m sure you both said things you didn’t mean." She nodded.
"It’s how I felt and I can’t take it back now. I’m going to go to the grave with my best friend hating me." She started crying even harder.
"You know he doesn’t hate you. You guys just need to talk. And you’re not going to the grave yet. You’re kicking this cancers ass then living a long amazing life then you’ll go to your grave when you’re much older." She smiled.
"I think you’re right." I looked at my phone to see I had a missed call from Danielle. Shoot I forgot I was meeting her for lunch in an hour.
"Hey I gotta go,but I hope you’re feeling better."
"Liam thank you so much. For everything I mean it." she got up from her bed and gave me a big hug. I hugged her back. She pulled away and I walked out of her room down the stairs and out the front door. Those two are so in love with each other.
I was so happy that Liam came over. When Niall first told me about One Direction being formed during X Factor I immediately made up my mind that I wouldn’t like them. That they would just be taking my best friend away from me. Once I met them they were impossible to hate. They have all been so kind and caring towards me. Especially Liam. I was so happy to have met them. I’m happy that make Niall so happy. Niall. I can’t stop thinking about Niall. What a bitch I was to him last week. It was true though. After we had sex he stopped putting effort into our relationship. I picked up the magazine.I don’t even know why I bought it. Obviously Niall’s stupid disguises weren’t necessary because we were all ready spotted. Pictures from the day he first ran into me when I was on the park bench in London. Us talking outside of Starbucks. Then him pulling me into the store. Then pictures of him going into the hospital. I didn’t even bother to read the article,but now I was curious. I started to read the article.
Niall Horan’s Heartbreaking Love Story
One Direction member Niall Horan spotted with this blonde. Her name is Tatum Powell. They were spotted together several times in London. Who is this Tatum Powell?Sources to Horan say that he is very much in love and happy. Here’s the twist. The girl has cancer. Leukemia.
My heart stopped at what I was reading. How the fuck did these people find this out. I started hyperventilating and I couldn’t stop. I grabbed my hair and squeezed it. Chunks of hair fell into my hands as I kept breathing faster and harder.”Tatum.” I heard my mum coming down the hall. Just breathe. Calm down. This will freak her out if she sees this. I tried to hard to stop before she got to the door. I just fell onto my bed. My mum opened the door.”Hi sweetheart.” I sat up still breathing hard,but calm enough for her not to notice anything. I looked into my mirror to notice that I had a huge bald spot now. My mum was staring at it.
"What’s happening to me?" I said in shock.
"Tatum it’s part of your medication. You’re hairs falling out."
"No." I said. I always knew that people with cancer ended up being bald,but I just. I don’t know. I thought it happened when you had surgery the surgeons shaved your head only if necessary. I don’t know. This can’t be happening."It’s just stress." I tried to cover it up.
"Tatum sweetheart you’re hairs falling out. It will grow back eventually."
"Eventually. I don’t have eventually." I was screaming now. I was so mad.
"Tatum don’t talk like that."
"I’m not going to be in denial like you Mum. Just go away."
"GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY ROOM." I screamed. I have never sworn at my mum before. She left right away. I sat in my bed just crying. I pulled out my Iphone. Maybe if I checked twitter or tumblr I wold feel better. I opened up twitter. My mentions had blown up. I had gone from 40 followers to 40,000. All of my mentions said something like this.
Ew Niall deserves so much better than you.Whore.
Ew I hope you die bitch.
Niall’s only with her because she has cancer. Once she dies he won’t have to deal with her anymore.
I hope the cancer eats away at your soul you ugly bitch.
I quickly hit reply at one of the I hope you die ugly bitch comment.
Well your wish may just come true sweetheart.
I hit the tweet button then closed my phone and went back to crying in my bed.
Bang Bang Bang
There was more pounding at my door. I really didn’t want to answer it. I didn’t want to be bothered.”Niall open the door.” It was Zayn,Louis,and Harry.”It’s really important. I’m serious.” I gave in and went to my door and opened it.
"What." Zayn,Louis,and Harry both rushed into my flat into the living room. I slowly closed the door and walked into the living room where they were waiting for me. Zayn through a magazine in front of me. There was a page with pictures of Tatum and me in them. My heart dropped. I looked at the articles. Niall’s Heartbreaking Love story. I read the page and my heart sunk. How did they find this out about Tatum? Her name? That she had Leukemia?"Who spoke to the press?" I said angrily.
"None of us. We promise we would never do that." I looked at them. All three of them dead serious looks in their eyes. I was so angry.
"What is management saying?"
"They want to talk to you."
"I don’t care what they have to say. I lost Tatum in the first place because of them. It’s my life I should be able to date whoever I want." I pulled out my phone. My twitter was open from the last time I was on my phone. Tatum had just tweeted something.
RT@Tatum_P9 I hope that cancer kills you you ugly bitch.
@Mrs.NiallJamesHoran Well your wish may just come true sweetheart.
No. This can’t be happening. I started to type on my tweets.
You should all be ashamed of yourselves. Tatum is my best friend since I was four years old. Yes she has cancer. I’m disappointed in all of you. To the people who told her to go to die well you can go to hell. I know the directioners will apologize. Again so disappointed.
I clicked the tweet button. Zayn,Louis,and Harry picked up their phones.”Managements going to kill you for that.”
"I really don’t give two fucks." I said as I started to get up. I moved away from the couch towards the front door.
"Where you going Niall?" I didn’t answer. I just ran out the door and kept running.
I needed to see her. This was all my fault. She doesn’t deserve any of this. Tatum doesn’t deserve to have cancer. She doesn’t deserve to be treated like this by the fans. She doesn’t deserve the way I’ve treated her the past year. I don’t deserve her. She is perfect. Beautiful,funny,and smart. How can anyone hate on her like that? I finally reached her familiar front door. I knocked on it with my good hand. The door opened and I looked down to see Finn.”Niall.” He said with a big smiled in his face. I haven’t seen Finn since Mullingar.
"Hey buddy. Is your sister home."
"In her room."
"Thanks." I ran up the stairs into her room. I knocked before opening the door.
"Go away." She said not even looking at the door to see who it is."Look I said go away." she turned around and froze when she saw me. Her eyes were swollen from crying. She turned her head away from me as if she was trying to hide something."Niall go away." My heart was breaking seeing her like this.
"No." I said as I sat down on the edge of her bed.
"Please Niall. You’re just here to say sorry about the comments I’m getting I know."
"You don’t deserve any of them. Those girls sending them they don’t mean them Tae. It’s just because you’re supposedly dating me. They don’t actually want you to die. That’s not the whole reason I’m here though." She stayed turned away from me."Tae will you just listen to me. Then I’ll leave I promise." I laid down next to her to see if I could get her to face me. I noticed there were chunks of her hair on the bed. Then I saw why she wouldn’t face me. On the other side of her head was a huge bald spot. She had several bald spots in her hair."Tae please look at me. Please." She finally turned around fully exposing the huge bald spot where her hair had fallen out.
"Are you happy now." Her tears were pouring out. I put my finger on her face,so I could wipe off her tears,but they kept getting faster as she started to cry faster."Why do you even want to be around me. I won’t be around to bother you much any longer. and while I’m still around I’m going to be a bald headed freak.If you couldn’t be seen with me before…" I moved my hands into what was left of her soft blonde hair.
"Tatum." she stopped talking and stared at me."I… I never used you for sex. That night it just happened. When we stopped I lied about wanting to be friends. The night we had sex was the night I realized that I was in love with you. I am in love with you Tatum. You are my best friend and I can’t see my life without you at all. And who cares about your hair. You don’t need it. You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. With or without your hair." She kept staring into my eyes taking everything I had just said in.
"Niall. It’s just because I’m dying. You don’t love me."
"Tatum. I have been in love with you since before I knew about your leukemia. I regret not telling you earlier,but I was afraid of losing of you and that happened anyways. I love you so much. I could scream it a million times. I don’t care about what management has to say or anyone else Tatum. You have been there for me no matter what since we were four. I want to be here for you. Through everything." I let a breath out realizing I had been so nervous I forgot to breathe. Does she feel the same way about me? I had no idea what she was going to say. She took a deep breath.
"Niall I love you too, you know that,but you deserve a lot better."
"I can’t imagine anything better.If anything I don’t deserve you" A small smile appeared on her face. Hard to see,but it was there. I couldn’t take it any longer I cupped her small face and I moved my lips onto hers. It caught her off guard at first,but she started to kiss me back. The kiss grew more and more passionate.There was a knock on the door and both of us sat straight up. finn peeked his head through the door. Mum wanted me to bring you this. Finn dropped off a plate of grilled cheese on Tatum’s desk. I looked over to see Tatum’s face she looked upset as her brother started to leave. I looked at her to see if she’d tell me what’s wrong. Our way of asking each other what’s wrong was when one of us laid down next to the other and we would talk when we were ready. The tears were pouring out of her eyes even harder now.
"Niall everythings just so fucked up." She finally said. I looked at her not sure how to respond."It wasn’t supposed to happen this way. I wasn’t supposed to leave everyone back home. You and I weren’t supposed to grow apart. You weren’t supposed to get too famous for me. I’m not supposed to lose my hair. I know it’s stupid,but it’s a part of me. I’m supposed to have to push away the people I love,but it’s not fair to them." She kept crying. I didn’t know what to do. I felt so much guilt for how I acted last week. For how I wasn’t around when I should have been. She was broken and I can’t fix her. I can’t do anything to change her suffering. I felt completely heart broken laying here.
"You have every right to be upset Tae. And I’m sorry about how I treated you last week. I can’t even begin to tell you how sorry I am. I just want you to be okay. I just want to see you happy again. That’s all I care about. What can I do?"
"Be us again. The real us." She said determined. I put my arms around her and just let her cry.